Abandoning Your Genius

This revelation hit me like a ton of bricks when it happened.

I remember it so clearly; it was right after Christmas 2000. My father had given me a CD by Andrea Bocelli, “Romanza.” My dad had come to the U.S. to sing opera, so he greeted any interest I showed in opera with enthusiasm, thus the Bocelli albums for Christmas.

Here’s a confession: I walked away from my violin for 20 years in my early 20’s. Just put it away one day and forgot about it. Why? My life pretty much centered around it until then. Well, I had relationships with guys who viewed rehearsals, lessons, and practice as intrusions. It was like they were competing with my violin.

So there I was 20 years later, absorbed in listening to Bocelli – the glorious orchestra soaring. Then – get this – a voice clearly said to me,

YOU DON’T HAVE TO SIMPLY LISTEN. GO BACK TO PLAYING AND BE PART OF IT.

So easy. So right. Yes…no question.

If the revelation that kicked me back on my path is something you relate to, do it.

Whatever you loved and abandoned, go back to it. I never – not even once – regretted it. There’s nothing to mourn! When I think of all the good people who wouldn’t be in my life if not for my music, the places I wouldn’t have been to, the pure fun I have, it’s not even a question.

I mean, teaching violin regained its rightful place in my life. It’s even my business! I never, ever considered that possibility before. Hey, sometimes we’re blind to our greatness and possibilities.

There’s a reason you found this post. Consider it a tap on your shoulder.

Love, Ellen

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